Are We There Yet?

The title of this blog is inspired by the song on my heart, "Are We There Yet" by Ingrid Michaelson (also loving "Distance" by Christina Perri right now). It's very hard to believe another year has come and gone and now we are living in 2012! Not only a year of experiences, I had no idea I would ever go through, but also a new appreciation of the impact we have on one another and the world.

Sometimes TV can be an interesting contrast to life. I just finished watching this week's episode of Grey's Anatomy, titled "Suddenly." Needless to say it left me in a tearful and emotionally wrenched state. But that's what good TV should do. Create perspective. In this case remind me that emotion is a wonderful thing, but that we need to take the time to recognize it and allow it's own space. This has been a theme consistently with myself and several friends already this year.

So here's my New Years resolution: to be okay with emotions and being hurt (this includes letting me be affected by other peoples' emotions and hurts as well). I know I discussed it last year, but I have been in such a "survivors mode" this last year that I need to know that letting these walls come tumbling down is safe and healthy thing to do. I need to ask for help and shoulders to cry on when I need them instead of hiding within my comfortable shell. For those who have been there when I have needed a hug and a shoulder to sob on this last year thank you (including my lovely car-she and I have had plenty of those nights together). It's hard to believe it's been less than a year since Mom's diagnosis, and a little over six months since her transplant. We have begun looking towards life moving in a "forward motion" for her, with her fundraiser a little over a month from now on February 18th, and soon her progressive return to work. We once again are asking for our prayerful people and wonderful huggers to surround us with your love!

It's getting to another period of transition for all of us. And the thought at the forefront of my mind is "breathe, just breathe" and then a "live in the present" for worrying about the future is out of our control. One can plan, organize and make lists, but life happens and things change. And holding onto them only makes them slip out of our hands more quickly. So here's to life as beautiful and messy as it can be, I am ready to live mine (damn it!) :)

Loving humanity and the world one day at a time!
-Me



("Sunrise Overture Pt 1 by RealityDream")